Kindergarten Already?

I’m a little emotional today…

Because Taylor is at a daycare centre with a kindergarten program, this week he began transitioning to the kinder room and today is his first official day as a kindergartener!

For those of you who are parents, you understand how exciting and emotional these milestones can be.  For me, I use to just assume I would witness these milestones.  Unfortunately, that is no longer the case – each milestone comes with the same emotions mentioned above, but I also feel like they have now become bucket list items or even goals.  I can check it off that I saw my son start kindergarten and I move onto my next goal of seeing him begin grade one.

I remember during his first few weeks at the daycare when he was just one year old, I would walk by the older rooms and think “will Taylor ever be ready for the toddler room, the pre-school room, the kinder room?”  I would see all the things these older children were capable of (putting on their own shoes, feeding themselves, playing with friends, colouring, talking, counting) and just couldn’t believe that one day, my little boy who was just learning how to walk would be doing all these big boy things.

But as I dropped him off at his new class room today (obviously with tears in my eyes) it was no longer him I had to worry about.  While he can make me so mad at times, that boy makes me the proudest Mommy everyday (okay, most days LOL) and I now see there is no limit to what he is capable of.  I now worry about me – what am I capable of?  How long will I be able to fight this battle and in that time, how many more milestones will I be blessed to witness?

While I continue to do everything in my power that I believe will help me in this life long battle, I have to keep hoping the amazing scientist and researchers are capable of finding a cure – I want to check off ‘danced with my son at his wedding.’